I’M NOT SURE IF IT’S JUST A PHASE

I Love It Sneaky Sound System (Australia)

 

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“…so…are we back together? this ‘on and off’ thing has got to stop. we’re not getting any younger. one minute you’re the biggest _____…then you go and do something sweet like that…it just confuses me! why do you have to be so cute?!! @#$%

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m: “kiss me…”

f: “…no.”

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f: “lol! that was fun…oh…that was good.”

m: “kiss me…”

f: “…”

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f: “you drive…i think i’m a bit drunk.”

m: “oh yea? kiss me…”

f: “…. …say sorry.”

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m: “hey! …thanks.”

f: “…no worries.”

m: “…oh…and…i’m sorry about ____.”

f: *smiles* “come here…”

m: “what? you’re gonna hit me or something!”

f: “no, retard! c’mere…”

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xoxo

POSING AS GYPSIES

Haciendo Eses Paco Ortega

 

*i’ve been looking for inspiration….something completely new, rooted from by own blood. and i got it.

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HANG THE DJ’S!!! GO ROOTS!

GOT TO MEET A BOY TO FALL IN LOVE WITH QUICK

Summertime, The Roughest Time Jenny Wilson (Sweden)

Books oh Books along a dusty road
Take to the right after the sign you’ll find me there
My nose is bleeding from rubbing it into books
I’m working hard on an intellectual look

Got a piece of paper to put poetry upon
But I’d rather write a crib so I can cheat
Come on!

I’ve slept more films than I have seen
I’ve talked about dreams that I never ever dreamed, yeah
I’ve slept more films than I have seen
I’ve talked about dreams that I never ever dreamed

Then the summer comes
Hey, ain’t that the roughest time of roughest times
Sun bleached hair
No matter what you’ve just got to have fun
And fall in love
Got to meet a boy to fall in love with quick
With a dazzling smile
No matter what, you’ve better not ask why

Love’s like viper but I can’t resist
To sip that poison, lick my lips, bite my finger tips
My head’s fallin’ off
It’s rolling away, am I astray head, wait for me!

Summertime’s the roughest time
Everybody’s telling me how easy things become
Summertime’s the roughest time
Everybody’s telling me how easy things become

Then the summer comes
Hey, ain’t that the roughest time of roughest times
Sun bleached hair
No matter what, you’ve just got to have fun

And fall in love
Got to meet a boy to fall in love with quick
With a dazzling smile
No matter what, you’ve better not ask why…

 

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ku’s girlfriend, sanah, is joining us for a swim. i suddenly become a third wheel! pfffft!!! =D

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I REALLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY SISTER, JOSETTE, AND HER LOVE, NEIL! THE TWO LOVEBIRDS ARE GETTING MARRIED TODAY! yea, those two make me barf cuz they’re always all lovey dovey and winking at each other. i hope their marriage last long and strong!!!

Get Together Madonna

(There’s too much confusion)
(It’s all an illusion)
(there’s too much confusion)

Down, down, down in your heart
Find, find, find the secret

Turn, turn, turn your head around
Baby we can do it
We can do it all right

Do you believe in love at first sight
It’s an illusion, I don’t care
Do you believe I can make you feel better
Too much confusion, come on over here

[Chorus]

Can we get together?
I really, I really wanna be with you
Come on, check it out with me
I hope you, I hope you feel the same way too

I searched, I searched, I searched my whole life
To find, find, find the secret
But all I did was open up my eyes
Baby we can do it

we can do it all right

Do you believe that we can change the future
Do you believe I can make you feel better

[Chorus X2]

It’s all an illusion
There’s too much confusion
I’ll make you feel better

If it’s bitter at the start
Then it’s sweeter in the end

IF YOU WANT ME, WHY DON’T YOU GIVE A SIGN

Oceans Johan (Netherlands)

i’ve been hanging around so long
i’ve been living on my own
waiting for you

i’ve been helpless since you’re gone
getting tired of being alone
keep thinking of you

i can not sleep
you never call
i can’t believe how deep i’ve fallen
into you

so if you’re lonely then
i will sail the ocean
threw me on the water
find me crawling on the ocean floor

if you need me then
i will cross the ocean
walk up on the water
the tides will bring me
to the ocean shore
if you want me
why don’t you give a sign

you have led a different world
and all the seasons
[blinded] you from me
getting closer
i can’t reach you
there’s a giant gap between us
can’t you see?

i can’t take it anymore
never make it to your door
i might drown

then if you’re lonely then
i will swim the ocean
threw me on the water
find me crawling on the ocean floor

if you need me then
i will cross the ocean
walk up on the water
the tides will bring me
to the ocean shore

if you want me
do you want me?

i believe in time
i believe in time
healing wounds
sorrow from the past
leaves us cold

i believe you’re mine
i believe i’m fine
then again i’m lost without you now
gotta get to you somehow
before i drown

i can’t take it anymore
never make it to your door
i might drown

then if you’re lonely then
i will swim the ocean
threw me on the water
find me crawling on the ocean floor

if you need me then
i will cross the ocean
walk up on the water
the tides will bring me
to the ocean shore

if you want me
do you want me?

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*i love this video. anyone else connect?

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mine passion. go to my videos and watch…react…contribute…

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one minute we’re on…the next minute we’re off.

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“we just don’t match!”

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she kept looking from the other table. she said she felt like she knew me already because she’s heard it all from my sister and they had her 10 hours a day, everyday for the past 7 years.

she was good looking in her all american way…blonde, simple, pretty, and southern. she started lookin’ a bit tossed up as the dinner reception went on. her cheeks red, she took off her heels and giggled a lot. she smiled a lot…but her boyfriend smiled on one side of his face and kept an eye on my eyes and hers the whole night. i knew. i could tell.

at the end of the night, she came up to my mom to say goodnight but ignored me standing next to her. her bf tapped her on the shoulder as she was walking away and she quickly turned around to say goodnight to me. she leaned over and kissed me with her reddened lips and told me how happy she was to finally meet me. ‘now, it’s on!’ she said in her sorority tone. ‘i look forward to seeing you again…’, then she leaned over again to kiss. “i told your sister how adorable you are!’ she must’ve been tipsy cuz she decided to lean over again and kiss me for the third time.

her bf interrupted her to shake my hand. this time, he stared and gripped my hand firm. i think he got a boner.

I LOVED YOU FIRST

Samson Regina Spektor

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn’t mention us

And the bible didn’t mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin’ on our heads
But they’re just old light, they’re just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red

Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I’d done alright
and kissed me ’til the mornin’ light, the mornin’ light
and he kissed me ’til the mornin’ light

Samson went back to bed
not much hair left on his head

Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn’t bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn’t destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn’t mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

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“…it’s me or her…”

THE KINGS AND QUEENS AT THE CLUB EVOLVED FROM PUBS

Salvador Jamie T (UK)

From here to salvador, the ladies dance
To fill us reckless sons with passions of the heart

I’ve been round this town for so long, she’s been dancing since the first day
I’ve been all around but I love coming back to see lucy

She swings me over to pull me out,
Twirls around and I fall about, in giggles and laugher, oh I’m plastered, can’t damn help it I’m sorry love

Whats to falling feeling feet
Great for bouncing round these streets
Theyre lonely like you, are for me, to ask for a dance or two

A heart of gold, and a face so pale, with a second hand dress and lips of a temptress

Bar stool banshee, howled out at me,
The kings and queens at the clubs evolved from pubs
And two much broken heart love
Singing up the blues in locked boxed bedroom,
a wop bop baloo bop ta wop bamboo
Are you going to take the chance
Why do you care no one plays fair
And neither do the lords of the dance

From here to Salvador, the ladies dance, to fill us reckless sons, with passions of the heart

Well it’s a bang bang Anglo Saxons at the disco
A tish you all fall down
Hound dogs round on the prowl
For the next young girl, who told her daddy,
“I’m going round Gemma’s to learn and study, I’m young and so free and I’m kinda sexy, and when I’m on the floor all the boys they feel me, and old dear diary’s never been a friend of mine.”

From here to Salvador, the ladies dance, to fill us reckless sons, with passions of the heart

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that kid in this video is fackin’ awesome! =D

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i’ve been bit by the inspiration bug and can’t wait to work on all MY OWN projects. i’m sitting here with klaas right now scheming to record stuff. i’m meeting with ru about making an awesome documentary about our scene here in sf circa 99-06. music videos are coming up.

so i’m gonna start focusing on my own story and put it down on record…on video…on screen. feels good.

i’m no longer chained.

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“i belong to a different jigsaw…nothing wrong with this one, or the one i really belong to…i just don’t fit on this one…that’s all.”

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i feel like playing out a lot more. i feel like producing and directing more. i need partners. passion partners. anyone else vibin’ this?

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haircut.

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on your mark! get set!!!!

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i love dancing with you!!!!! =D

SOMETIMES THE ROAD WILL TWIST AND TURN

Throw It All Away Zero 7

Try talking to you
While you do, while you do
I swap places with you
Just to see things through
Just sing me the tune
And you’ll see
I’ll keep it here for you
I’ll wait for your cue

You wrote down all the words
Black and white
On a wall
Just keepin’ it so
Yeah you know how it goes
No plans for a change, nothing strange
No not today no way
Now sing me the tune

Cash it in and throw it all away
Never needed any of it anyway

So you twist and you turn
Uncomfortable fool, you’ll never learn
But you can take a stand
Forget all about the plans California rose

Side one track two
On a record of you
I’ve even stuck on a groove
That I don’t wanna lose
Just play it again, as a friend
It’s your favorite worn-in shoes
Now sing me the tune

Cash it in and throw it all away, yeah
Never needed any of it anyway

So you crash, and you burn
Sometimes the road will twist and turn
Some of this, less of that
Forget all about the map California road

Cash it in and throw it all away
Never needed any of it anyway

Cash it in and throw it all away, yeah
Never needed any of it anyway

Cash it in and throw it all away
Never needed any of it anyway

Cash it in and throw it all away
Never needed any of it anyway

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i’ve been contemplating a significant paradigm shift.

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“you’re very smart and many people dig your vibe. you get too caught up with drama at work sometimes that you forget who you are. i know you’re dramatic and you spend a lot of time at work…but don’t you think it’s time to get back to who you are? you were only suppose to jam there for a minute…you paid off that camera even though they never bought one to replace it…you’ve totally revamped their department and you’ve done wonders for all the programs there…what more do you want? a full time job?! come on! you’ll only be miserable. you need to get back to rockin’ out for real. you should keep traveling and making a real difference…not get all stupid over corporate shit.

‘don’t let work get in the way of your career,’ right?

you need to flip it. no pun intended”

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be the irony.

THANK GOD FOR MOM AND DAD FOR STICKING THROUGH TOGETHER

Hey Ya, Charlie Brown! Outkast & Peanuts Mash-Up

[Intro]
One two three go!

[Verse One - Andre 3000]
My baby don’t mess around
Because she loves me so
And this I know fo shooo..
Uh, But does she really wanna
But can’t stand to see me
Walk ou the dooo..
Don’t try to fight the feelin’
Because the thought alone is killing me right nooww..
Uh, thank god for mom and dad
For sticking through together
‘Cause we don’t know hooowww…
UH!

[Chorus]
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa..
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa..
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa..
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa..
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa..
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa..
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa..
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa..

[Verse Two - Andre 3000]
You think you’ve got it
Ohh, you think you’ve got it
But got it just don’t get it
Till’ there’s nothing at
AaaaaaaaAAAAAAAaaaaaaAAAAAAaaaaaallllll..
We’ve been together
Ohh, we’ve been together
But seperate’s always better when there’s feelings
InvooooooOOOOOOOoooooooOOOOOOooooooOOOOOlved
If what they say is (‘Nothing is forever’)
Then what makes, Then what makes, Then what makes
Then what makes, Then what makes LOOVVEEE?
(Love exception) So why you, why you
Why you, why you, why you are we so in denial
When we are not happy heeeerrreeee…
Y’all don’t want me here you just wanna dance

[Chorus]
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (Don’t want to meet your daddy, OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Just want you in my Caddy OHH OH)
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH, don’t want to meet yo’ mama OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Just wan’t to make you cumma OHH OH)
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (I’m, OHH OH I’m, OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (I’m just being honest OHH OH, I’m just being honest)

[Bridge - Andre 3000]
Hey, alright now
Alright now fealous, (YEAH!)
Now what’s cooler than bein’ cool?
(ICE COLD!) I can’t hear ya’
I say what’s cooler than bein’ cool?
(ICE COLD!) whooo…
Alright, alright, alright, alright
Alright, alright, alright, alright
Alright, alright, alright, alright
Alright, alright, alright, Ok now ladies, (YEAH!)
And we gon’ break this back down in just a few seconds
Now don’t have me break this thang down for nothin’
Now I wanna see y’all on y’all baddest behavior
Gimme some suga’, I am your neighbor ahh here we go!
Shake it, shake, shake it, shake it (OHH OH)
Shake it, shake it, shake, shake it, shake it, shake it (OHH OH)
Shke it, shake it like a Poloroid Picture, shake it, shake it
Shh you got to, shake it, shh shake it, shake it, got to shake it
(Shake it Suga’) shake it like a Poloroid Picture

[Verse Three - Andre 3000 (Repeating 'Shake it' in background)]
Now while Beyoncé and Lucy Lui
And baby dogs, get on the floor
(Get on the floor)
You know what to dooo..
Yooooouuu.. know I do

[Chorus]
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Uh oh, Hey Ya)
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Uh, uh, OHH OH)
Heeeyyy… Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)
Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)

[Chorus continues until fade]

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“family kiss!!!!”

A "BE YOUTHFUL" DAY

What’s It Gonna Be? Mike O’Connell & Dr. Ken

*this video is just straight up extreme hilarity…lol!!!!!

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for papa day, we decided to chill and watch the world cup game between brazil and australia. ku’s all about brazil right now! haa. if he only knew what his name is in portuguese…( ‘cu’ means butthole…lol…just imagine last time we went to a capoeira festival…i yelled out ‘ku!’ and everyone looked at me like i was an evil father! when i explained…’no, that’s my son’s name…’ they thought worse! lol!)

after brazil won, we skipped over to North Beach for the festival! we had tons of fun! there were buttloads of people from all over! ______ and i drank beer and ate bbq skewers then we all went and had gelato…so awesome! at washington park, they had that 80’s cover band blasting again but it was too jam packed with people.

at grant, they had these awesome geezers totally jammin’ up some old school juke joint swing and shit! it was fucking killer!!!! they were all looking all stylee too! the stand-up bassist was rad. then, on the same stage, a brazilian band busted out and the whole streetside lit up! all these folks with yellow brazil team shirts and all these fine ladies just came out of nowhere and got all carnival on everyone! haha! rad…

we split and went to go bowl at the presidio. ku just couldn’t wait. i figured, for papa day, bowling and burgers would end the day just right. and tons of fun we definitely had! i got my ass wooped…but it was fun.

when we got home, ku and i couldn’t resist getting naked and just splash around in the bath. it was the best thing to scrub ku down. fun times. made me feel good to be a papa.

it was a beautiful day. a ‘be youthful’ day.

love,

papalito

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we decided to follow the world cup and for every winning country we’re gonna go eat at a respective restaurant to celebrate…or something related.

we were hoping korea won their game today, cuz korean bbq is the shiznit and all them veggie side stuff they got going on. da bomb yo.

if and when USA wins, we’re gonna go vote or something. then eat at mcdonalds. no…it should be like cajun dinner and movies or something…like Bubba Gump’s. ooh! i know! a drive-in! =D

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it was fun chummin’ down the arrow last night for jason’s bday. i felt all warm and fuzzy cuz i realized i missed going down there and seeing them good nice folks. like, jeanine ‘my favorite sf bartender’, who’s pretty eyes always mesmerize and amaze me. she told me about how she recieved a letter from herself that she wrote a year or two ago and how she said that going back to school is cool. now she’s back in school! and she is very cool. that set my night up all nice.

then all the friendlies were there. jefrodizzy dropped lots of neato new stuff and i was reminded why he’s the sf knight rider. and jason dropped danzig and that made me totally cheez. happy bday richie panic! =D

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i think i’ve gotten better with behaving when i go out. i started making a conscious effort to not act like a real drunken monkey and get all bump-n-grindy with unsuspecting drunken chicken dancers or learing panty prancers trying to wipe their snail tracks on my pressed trousers. not that i don’t enjoy the wiff of gin splashed hair and sweat from under their chin, fair and wet.

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“are we having sex cuz we’re back together? or are we back together cuz we’re having sex?”