I HAD THE IDEA THAT YOU WERE NEAR

Digitalism “Idealistic” (Germany)

I have an idea that you are here
I had the idea that you were near
I have an idea that you are here
I had the idea that you were…near

Could it be you’re here (x4)

Here!

Here!

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i’ve been having this odd feeling that many deep connections are coming back to sf for the love fest/parade weekend or at least during it. i can sense that we are all thinking of each other. i wonder if we’ll connect again this time. hmmm…

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i’m so looking forward to seeing you!

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in the past, i could surely tell when someone i love or loved was near. i get this weird thought then a weird feeling then a weird msg. i think i’m psychic…err maybe psychotic.

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you definitely should be here next wednesday. i promise a good time!

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i’m also having a get together for my bday on sunday during the day and at night. if you’re near, at least give me a kiss…or a slap…whichever i deserve. write me directly and i’ll let you know the haps. xoxo

ALL ASIANS LOOK ALIKE

Nitro Microphone Underground Air Force One (Japan/France)

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a while back ago, someone at blow up came up to me real excited and said, ‘hey! aren’t you silke labson’s dad!?’ silke is the photowonder pretty girl you always see at blow up. she’s half rice half potatoes and apparently i look like her dad(?). i thought, ‘hmmm…either silke’s dad is a handsome fella or us asian mens all do look alike.’

i met him at treasure island last weekend, finally. the answer is, he’s a handsome and friendly faced cat…and us asians all do alike! lol

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“i thought i saw you last night at pink. but it wasnt you. my huge smile and enthusiasm may have scared this other boy off i think! hahah”

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i need to get some new kicks. spending time alone today to go shopping and get all zen on it. something is bothering me…yea shopping will heal it! lol (i’m such a betch)

*fucking maxwell shoes are like $1500! wtf?

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“i may look like the next nice guy but don’t be fooled. i can cut you off just like that.”

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rant:

the stereotype of asian men haven’t changed much over the years. always, they are expected to be timid, passive, unsexy, and with penises slightly bigger than a woman’s clit. it surprises people when i get aggressive with fuckers who cut in front of me in line as if i would just let them, or get angry and retaliate when disrespected or insulted, or react when treated like a fucking maid if i’m not your ticket in the club.

so glad for those who are deeper than that. i have another surprise.

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@#$%@#$%!!!

I AM YOUR FATHER

Omnikrom “Ete Hit” (Canada)

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“did you pay the bills?”

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ku borrowed stuff from the library on his own for the first time. he got a cd-rom game “math mission” and the STAR WARS Episode I Encyclopedia.

last night, we sat at _______’s section in sparky’s diner (btw she’s the best! better than alice!). she was wearing a shirt of tie fighters coming at ya. she told us she’s been playing “star wars hang man” all day. my friend _______ pointed out “why would it have to be a ‘man?’” come to think of it, it’d be funner to have “hang ewoks”

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i had to buy a new washer after i broke the fuck out of the other one by stuffing too much shit in there. the transmission gave out??

the store i bought it from agreed to deliver the new washer in trade for the broken one and a dryer that’s been there for ages. but, we asked if they could deliver at 8 am.

two old dudes showed up complaining it was too early to be working and they were heaving and nagging about how it’d be better if they got paid a little more and all this shit. one guy kept bossing the other guy and that old man would just cuss in spanglish then they’d argure some more! lol

the spanglish guy would keep calling me ‘papa.’ i liked it.

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“too young.”

I HOPE THAT THIS SHAKING WILL HELP US AWAKEN

Menomena “Wet and Rusting” (Portland)

I made you a present, you’ll never expect it
And when you unravel the secret will travel
It’s hard to take risks with a pessimist
I hope that this shaking will help us awaken
Separated by skin ‘til we let ourselves in
It’s hard to take risks with a pessimist
It’s hard to take risks
I hope one will burn me, I know you’ll desert me
(This is the closest I’ve come to touching you the way I want)
The hope can be painful, I’ll try to be faithful
(It’s hard to take risks)

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saying goodbye is such a hard thing. but, luckily, experience has taught me: burn a bridge only when ready to forge a stronger, longer lasting one.

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i completely shied away from seeing anyone and everyone. i hope they don’t think i’m a jerk for not calling or not being as responsive all of a sudden. i’m just not ready.

i wrote a letter to you…then deleted it (just like old times! lol). i know your big day is coming up. i am very happy for you! it’s such a big step to be betrothed. i can only imagine how beautiful you’ll be on that day. i truly wish i was there. maybe next time?

i love you and congratulations.

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it’s amazing how this deepkiss thing is really moving!(?) i swear i’m really learning about business and artist growth doing this thing. one of the best part is being challenged with arbitrary diplomacy. i was recently presented with the opportunity to book a much spacier, much better sounding, properly hooked up video projection, and more profitable venue. my dilemma is how to transition without ever losing the friendships we built with our current spot.

it’s almost like dating someone…then dating someone else 2 months later. nothing was wrong. in fact, it was really nice and hot! who wouldn’t love to hit that some more? except, you need space…to drink and dance…with air conditioning…and play whatever whoever however whenever without anyone telling you what to do.

i know business is business but, if i get to choose, i wouldn’t leave folks hanging. plus, how arrogant would that be to switch places thinking we all that only to find out it was a mistake? then lose friends meanwhile? no. the best way is to do it right.

WITH A FUCKING BANG! =D

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oh yea! two bday parties. one at deepkiss and the other at zeitgeist on sunday 9/30 afternoon. i want metal, hefeweizen, jager, schnitzels, and a big white wall for my real bday day. i’m screening whatever i have of bizarre love pentagram on that day! like a ‘drive-in’! =D wed night will be for going ape shit.

if you’re ‘fam,’ send me your email for sure so i can send you the invite.

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we’ve been able to raise $___ for the big party in november and, universe willing, it all falls into place. thank you ladies for totally supporting our deep kiss party thing! we’re working towards a ‘next level’ sort of show for you and plan to take it to the rest of world with you in the driver’s seat! and shotgun naps! *and backseat comfort* (complete with champagne!)